Me Myself And Me again

That i would be crowding Friendster again…

what am i doing…

i just noticed, nothing has changed… why is it like this?

shouldn’t i be doing something i know would be on my best interest?

lately i noticed that it’s all the same…is it really true that there’s nothing permanent in a persons life?

i live my days the same way i used to do it a few years ago… why is it?

i wake up, go to work/school,lie to bed, and sleep… the same cycle everyday…

i may have met certain people in my life, but i noticed, where are they now?

i sometimes look at my friend’s list, and there times that i stare at someone’s pictures asking myself, was he/she a part of my life? are all those times that we spent did happened? or just some memories inplanted in our mind?

im not kinda sure whether all those things that i did in the past had made me of what i am today, cause as i see to it, im still me… the way i was.. still the same…

can any of you still remember, a friend, the first to cry because of you? can any of you remember the happiest moment during your nursery/kindergarten days? can you remember the first time you noticed you were breathing?

so many memories you locked up on your heart the we forget all those things that doesnt mean anything for the present…

how sad it is.. to not recognize the first person who asked you to be their friend… to not remember the very first promised you two had made..

i just noticed, is it because i am gaining age so i am asking for attention? or is it me locking in motivation?

i ask for forgiveness… nothing like this would ever be posted again…

i just wished he still remembers me… my very first friend…

how should i start this… cause as i see it, blog seem to be used like a diary or some sort of commentary message to either someone you hate or love, something you ate from a certain fast food restaurant, the dress of your classmate which you didn’t like the color, or something that made your day so terrible you just wanna put all your anger in killing some time by posting it to your blog…

well, i’m one of those who put commentary to others… hahahaha

not different from the others huh?

this is my first blog, and i’m not sure this may caught the interest of all those who know me…

may i greet everyone merry christmas and a happy new year..

here’s my question, are you really happy?

i may not be on the postion to ask that cause even i question myself…

things may got out of our hand… things may not seem to be what we thought it may come out…

the year is ending, have you made a treat for yourself to made you feel at ease this year ending event? have you told yourself, well done for the year; and thought of the things youve done, youve worked for, your sacrifices, youre trophies, everything that has to do with you…

a year is ending and a new one is about to come… new troubles are on the way, new sacrifices to be done, hardships, pain, suffering, laughter, joy…

at least, even just for this time, give yourself a break, and congratulate yourself for working hard this one whole year..

and then breath… breath as if it is the end of the world… for another year is about to come…

of course, don’t forget to say thanks to everyone you hold dear…

buy your mother some flowers…

tell your father how much you love them…

tell your friends how grateful you are…

and don’t forget the one that you love…

even though they may not love you, thank them…

i know what i posted may not mean something… i may just be crowding friendster’s hard disk… you may not see your crush’s blog from the latest list because of me…

but hey, i’m not the only one posting here… hehehe this is what i want to shout… this is what i want everyone to know… this is what i want everyone to hear from me… ciao